A tiME i fElt i WAS iN A CAGE....

A time I felt like I was in a cage was when I was very sick and it felt like I was never going to leave the hospital and felt that the pain would never go away. As a result to this I fell into a depression and didn't want to go outside, I didn't want to go to school, I didn't want anybody to see me. I would spend my day laying on a bed. Then I started to read books, but I still wasn't going outside or going to school. I was getting more interested in books that I actually asked my mom to take me to the bookstore and right away she did. After that every time she needed to go to wal-mart she begged me to go with her saying that the fresh air would do me good. She told me that I could ride the little cars people use when they're handicapped. As I noticed that it was "okay" to actually go outside and people wouldn't laugh at me, I decided to go to the store or just outside as many times I could. 

LEUKEMIA

How long is this disease going to rule my life?

When are the unexpected pains going to go away?

I ask myself these questions everyday. 

And everyday I have the same answer. 

Having Leukemia changes your life completely and its something you don't know if it'll ever go away.

Leukemia ruined my life, it made all of my hair fall off 

There was only one person who I blames; God. 

I would be in a hospital bed for several weeks and ask God; "What did I do to deserve this?"

As time passed by and I would see all the little children in the hospital going through something worse than me, I started to realize 

I realized these kids are fighting a battle much worse than me so why can't I? 

All the times I felt like I was going to die soon went away

I then started to thank god everyday for keeping me alive 

Now I know that whatever God has planned for me is only to make me stronger.

If I could relive my life over I would go through that battle all over again. 

Multi-tasker!

This year has been HECTIC!
But i love it that way!
I've joined every possible club in the school.....well no except the debate team/club.
I've also volunteered at the zoo!
the clubs I'm in include; poetry :0, G.I.A., F.O.C.U.S, and Newspaper Club :D
My plate is pretty much full but when it gets full i always go get a bigger plate.
I promised myself this year was going to be different and that i was going to get more involved with people and thats exactly what i'm doing.
I love that i've only been absent 2 or 3 times compared to most of the year last year.
I know the there's more to come so I'll be waiting for all of the opportunities!!

Response to "Freedom Writers"

Freshman Year (1994)

The first year of the freedom writers talks about the undeclared war and a lot of revenge. The undeclared war is a war between color and race. Kids from Long Beach, California have a lot of issues involving race. Blacks, Whites, Asians, and Hispanics can't get along with one another because thats what they grew up learning. What they start to realize with Ms. Gruwell teaching them, is that they actually could get along if it weren't for the race issues. Since there's different gangs and its absolutely forbidden to talk to an Asian if you're a Hispanic, kids get into fights all the time and if one of their friends dies the other members of the gang seek revenge even if it was their own fault.